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Apr. 16th, 2010

Sleeping

unsure

So I don't get why people find me interesting at all...I'm a very plain Jane almost a book text dork and I'm just not sure why people like me. But I know they like to hang out with me for what ever reason. So why am I sooo hung up on this Im not too sure myself but it just dawned on me that some of the people I hang out with are far more exciting than I every inspire too be and I feel like Im this little puppy just looking for some attention....I dont know now Im just ranting I guess I just want know if anyone else feels the same way like your the but of a joke you dont even know is been told

Feb. 17th, 2010

flighty

Moving on

Moving on... the rest of my childhood crushes were a blur. The only thing I truly remembered about them was that there was a pattern. A pattern I'm sure a lot of girls follow...bad boys and well built boys. Those were the kind of boys that would bring butterflies into my stomach. This pattern sort of followed me to my high school years. I think the only thing I added was that they needed to be smart too and funny.

I think in high school i had a total of 4 crushes and one date....Pathetic I know but I did get the courage together to ask three boys out...


The one date was actually my Sadie Hawkins dance date. We ended up going to dinner instead of the dance. I think he wanted more but since I had no idea how to go about doing anything nothing ever happened.

I tended to blame this lack of knowledge to the fact that I really didn't have a social life. I had already been working at the tender age of 13 as a babysitter so every Friday, Sat and Sundays I was going to work.

Once I got to college I used the same excuse.

So in conclusion dating in High School was non-existent

Feb. 15th, 2010

cry journal fma

First crush

So my assignment was to write a story about me meeting a guy and talking to him....

But where to start? Maybe going down the list of my ohhh so short love life is the way to go.


My first crush was a boy had blue eyes and blond hair. I would say he was a little hoodlum. Anyways I was totally into him when I was 10 year old. I remember the feelings and like one image of him but other than that I only remember when I felt that I could not longer find him attractive or cute because I was not allowed to think of him.

How could this be you might be asking. Simple I went to a school event and remember I was just ten so it was one of those dinky carnivals that the school puts on with arts and crafts. Anyhoo I remember that I was with my dad and brother at the carnival and all of a sudden I saw the boy I liked...standing in front of the cookie booth. And me being ten and not knowing what was appropriate or note shouted "HEY...let me have a cookie" at the time this was how I waged if someone liked me or not or if the even noticed me. My guy was like sure and threw me the cookie and walked off. Not two seconds afterward my dad was telling me that not how you suppose to be in front of boys. That crushed me because it made my pure innocent feeling into something unclean. That was the day I stopped liking my first crush.

After that I could only bring myself to acknowledge that I had crushes and that they would only last a couple of weeks since it was wrong for me to have them.
Sleeping

Good grief....

Every time I try to commit to writing in this thing I always wimp out I guess I should commit to anything...

Well this time around I seem to be a bit more stable. Hopefully I can actually dedicate time to this journal. Although it does seem odd that I basically rant about my personal stuff to everyone that wants to read it. Oh well...so where should I start. I think its best to start with an assignment that I got out of a self help book. It asked to review your love life to see the patterns that you had created as well as to write about the new relationship you want to have... (insert sarcastic RIGHTTT) but what the hell I will give it a go.

Dec. 31st, 2008

cry journal fma

CHANGE

Little has changed since the last time I posted something... and it made me upset to see this because I want change...I guess I will have to put in some more effort if I want to see something happen.

Nov. 8th, 2008

flighty

Work....

You know people I never really thought that I would find my dream job right after graduation. But the universe aligned and somehow I got the job that I wanted. I'm working with adults and I don't have to do home visits. I guess the whole secret thing actually works. SO I think the next thing I will say is that I will get my new car by end of next month. I'm just putting it out there hopefully the cosmos will re-align for me again.

May. 28th, 2008

cry journal fma

OMG I finished Grad School

Please let me take a moment and celebrate the fact that I finally got my Master degree. It took me 5 years people. Five very long years of having to scrimp and save pennies, having to deal with a borderline mother, having brothers that are complete and total smooches and a father that is so discouraging that I don't know how I survived. The ceremony was gorgeous but I got to say if I had to redo it I would probably not do the big school graduation. I think that I would just do the hooding.

Apr. 23rd, 2008

flighty

THANK YOU

I want to thank those of you who donated to the Revlon run/walk....we have reached our 1000 dollar goal and we are continuing to fund raise. The actual run/walk is on May 10th hopefully I will be able to post pictures.


thank you once again...

Apr. 18th, 2008

flighty

Well that was my ten second of rubbing shoulders with a celebrity.

I actually at in the same restaurant with a D-List celebrity...and all I can say is OMG. SO today I went into the THE HAT in Pasadena and while I was getting my plate and ketchup packets and then I noticed Kathy's mom and I swear I had to do a double take. I was thinking that she was the AARP lady on the television commercials and so I started to go down the aisle to find a place to sit and that when I saw her. Kathy Griffin I swear you guys I almost pee-ed my pants. It was freaking awesome.

Well that was my ten second of rubbing shoulders with a celebrity.

Apr. 10th, 2008

geisha

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